he is my schroder to my lucy.



one day im going to get over him. i figured that it would take a really hard hit on the head causing me to have amnesia to forget. i was watching a documentary on pbs about the peanuts comic strip and as i was looking on i noticed how lucy was so in love with her pianist. reminded me of myself. trying so desperatly to get his attention but nothing i do or say could pull him away from his music. this is when i say "fuck love."

yeah i have said before. after every broken heart i swear that i wouldn't do it again. i wouldn't allow my heart to be trampled on by those not good enough to hold it. i think the more i get hurt the more i find myself closer to that point. but then again i always find myself back in this stupid boat, trying to figure out how i got myself here and how to get out. who knows, i may just have to drown myself to get this lesson